Yet the pleasure we partake in; was caused by the fanged grin

I’m feeling in a very dark mood right now. So I’m going to rant for several moments: Bear with me, people and bananas and Carolyn over there with Cadmus in her lap~

1. I’m so sick of people underestimating me. I may not be the thinnest, the brightest, the tallest but I’m only human and every person had their faults. I hate it when he’s so sarcastic towards me. It’s like he’s belittling everything I do, I mean, come on, you can’t mould people to whatever you want them to be, according to your stupid FUCKING NAZI type of rules. I can’t accept ALL of your incessant demands. You nitpick every tiny thing I do and it gets on my nerves, no matter how patient everyone says I am. I never was the conformist and you’ve never acted like this because of it before now.You’ve always, or rather – used to – accepted me for what I am, and mother always said that when I was little, I was the closest to you. But now when I grow up, I grow closer to her and not you because of the way you act sometimes. Okay so things at your work are not all sunshine and flowers and your day was shitty but it doesn’t mean you have to bring your shittiness home and shove it at other people. You bring other people down because you’re down, and it is idiotic. I can’t ever say I hate anyone because it’s not in me, I’m not the overly emotional type and I’m not a hater but I really really dislike you right now.
2. I have a dreaded feeling in my stomach right now. I just received an SMS from Republic Poly saying that I’ll get the results of my DAE posting on 27 March, and that I’m supposed to go there to confirm it. But what if there’s an odd chance that I might not be accepted? My results aren’t that bad, but what if those Republic Poly people go, “Oh, let’s play a game of tikam-tikam, give this place to this girl who got a really shitty mark and not this girl who got an average-like mark (me)” and then I don’t get into any course. I’d be really devastated.I really, really hope that I get into any of the 5 choice courses. Sometimes when I’m alone and left to my thoughts I can’t help but to think of negative things like not being accepted into the poly. And if I don’t get accepted – what do I do? I don’t know what I can do. I might go and find a job, but that’s the last thing on my mind right now. Can you imagine being the only person off your group of friends to not have a school, while the rest of them are having fun in their respective institutions and you being stuck in a boring, shitty day job? I can’t ever imagine that. I NEED TO GET INTO REPUBLIC POLY.
3. I don’t know if I should put Shido and Ban yaoi into Blood of the Snake. One of my readers say that it may make the already heavy plot heavier. Maybe I could make a series of spinoffs instead off the story when it’s completed, and add the things I couldn’t add into it. But on the other hand I could add several hints of the sexual tension between the ‘two alpha males’ (quotation according to lksugui lol). One of my favourite pairings off Get Backers fandom would be them, beside Ban and Ginji (who totally are in love).

I’ve always liked and have entertained the idea that the reason why these two hate each other so much is that they can’t have what they want (like Shido can’t have Ginji because of Ban, etc) so they can’t express that suppressed feelings in the right way, so they do it under a facade that they hate each other. Thus the tension, ooh.

I also know what I didn’t put the hints of sexual tension between the two in the previous chapters because it hasn’t boiled up to them actually facing it yet. So I have to include the hints of the tension between the two, make it more obvious that they have the hots for each other, thus leading to the ‘one night stand’ before Ban becomes a vampire. Ban needs to resolve things between Shido and himself to make himself become sure that everything is fine before he makes the choice to become immortal.

And I like this person’s review of my story (Nick: Ice_Dragon3 off FF.net) :

“I like how much detail you lavish upon the characters. Your story really does remind me of Anne Rice’s (I’ve read quite a few of her vampire books, and Louis has always been my favorite character–but he plays such a minor role after Interview with a Vampire!) I like how you added in a bit of witchcraft through Ban. Speaking of which, it seems to me that Ban and Ginji’s powers are increasing–is it because of Cadmus’s blood? You’ve done a nice job of discreetly feeding the reader little hints of how they’re becoming more vampiric (like Ginji’s throwing up).

You asked what readers thought of adding a little Shido/Ban in here, and well…for me, I think it would make the story a little too chaotic. It’s a nice pairing, but there’s already so much going on. Plus, while your reasoning behind such a ‘get together’ makes sense, you haven’t really done any sort of foreshadowing to lead up to such an event; the reader might not arrive so smoothly at such a conclusion. However, if you’ve already written it and whatnot, I’m sure you’ll do a lovely job of writing it into the story. I figured, since you asked, I’d give you my honest opinion.

Love the story, and I can’t wait to see what happens next!”

Aww, doesn’t that make you smile? Such nice and kind words… ^_^

This is what the two characters look like:

Ban the Evil Eye user (such a bishie lol)

Shido the Beast Master

Damn that feels good after ranting everything out on my blog. And the third rant about Ban and Shido has also been solved as I type and think it out, that’s good.

P.S: Carolyn, if you’re still reading this, it means you’re abandoning Cadmus, and Ban and Ginji are starting to notice he’s goone~~~ *_*