Paint me a picture of what your future will be. Why?
I would be at the prime of my life, beautiful inside and outside, well-known for my written works which reflect what the essence of culture that the Singaporean society is through the eyes of an utterly complicated individual. I would have achieved those ambitions I have lusted for so long and attained happiness in my life. I would have met someone I care enough to love, be it a man or a woman; I do not care - what I crave for is devoted love. I do not know about having children, however - I do not know if I am able to want to have children in the future. What I know that this is unthought-of at this point of time in my life; I am only just sixteen after all. I would have visited beautiful places like Japan, England, and Germany and met people from different cultures, and I would have dedicated myself to learn more languages to express myself in other forms rather than English and Malay only. If I grow older, I would love to devote myself to charity work and help save lives and poverty especially in nearby Southeast Asian countries which are still suffering. I want to change lives, and change these seemingly polluted teenaged minds that I see going into a vicious cycle easily avoided since I see such happenings everywhere even in such a developed, first-world country such as Singapore. Maybe I would go in search for the true meaning of God and religion and be a true Islam woman for once. I would have the passionate fire burning in my eyes, the zest that I have for life and my lust for writing, transcending my emotions into words that will be immortalised forever in my name and in books, read again and again for generations. My legacy will be passed on, and my creations will pass from fiction into legend. I simply want my future to be peaceful and happy.
Thanks Sean Tall again 
Credit: http://seantall.blogspot.com
The pink one is currently my desktop wallpaper
Aw man, this pop art of him is looking smokin’ hot.
Fierce looking expression bathed in multi-colours? Odd combination but I don’t mind, either way, Kamijo is still hot
Credit goes to Sean Tall: seantall.blogspot.com
1. What disappoints you the most?
When things do not go as I’ve planned.
2. Where will you go when someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
To Tokyo so I can go and steal Kamijo XD
3. How many ex do you have?
1
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Heck yeah.
5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
Ahh, to have Kamijo all to myself? XD
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No, especially not in Singapore.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Myself. My mind, my conscience.
8. If you win a million, what would you do?
Many things, which will go unstated here.
9. What do you dream of doing in future?
Writing popular fiction novels.
10. Have you any regrets?
Yes.
11. What makes you happy?
When I achieve success.
12. What type of person do you hate the most?
Overly egoistical and arrogant without reason.
13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
A writer/author in Singapore.
14. What was the last thing you said to someone?
“Ma! Dengar lah lagu adik! Apa ini dengar lagu sendiri habis tu pekakkan telinga ni?!”
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My passions.
16. Any childhood memories that you’ll like to re-live?
No.
17. Who are your best buddies?
I don’t have any best friends, only people who are close to me. I’d be what you call a ‘floater’.
18. What would be the last thing you would like to say before you leave this world?
“It’s been a long fucking ride. Thank you, and see you all in Hell, or wherever people like me go to.”
19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
No, unless Kamijo mysteriously appears in Singapore, then I’ll go all fangirly over him and worship him XD
20. If you could bring back a person from the dead, who would you pick and why?
John Lennon. I’d see how much he would change the world, then if everything goes alright I’ll let him live. But if he fucks with the world I’d go “Ah, that’s enough now, Sir Lennon, now back to wherever you came from,” and bring him back to wherever he came back from the dead.
Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don’t make sense. You’ll be surprised though. NO CHEATING.
How am I feeling today?
Whatever - Oasis
Will I get far in life?
Forbidden Gate - Versailles
How do my friends see me?
It’s A Hit - We Are Scientists
Where will I get married?
Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall
What is my best friend’s theme song?
Stuck in the Middle With You - Stealers Wheel
What is the story of my life?
12:51 - The Strokes
What’s high school like?
Cigarettes and Alcohol - Oasis XD
How can I get ahead in life?
No Distance Left to Run - Blur
What is the best thing about you?
Devil - Stereophonics
What is tomorrow going to be like?
Bright Future in Sales - Fountains of Wayne
Ah, Mon Dieu, life is great.
I’ve fallen in love yet again, but this time with a Symphonic Metal/Visual kei J-rock band called Versailles. They’re all so very beautiful people, and the lead singer is utter and complete eye candy indeed. Can I simply say he’s lush? His name’s Kamijo, and initially I wasn’t too keen with his voice - his voice does take some getting used to - but now I am irrevocably in love with it. Their music is beautiful, somewhat brooding if you hear the little extravagant piano bits, and Kamijo’s voice is like smooth velvet (listen to: The Love from A Dead Orchestra), and the guitar bits are screeching and desperate and melodic and so very, very good. Their music takes away those headaches that I have constantly enough, surprisingly. I guess that since I think too much I get those headaches, and when I listen to this overwhelming music those unwanted thoughts would overtake my thoughts and I would then concentrate on the sheer goodness of their music.
Another reason why I love this band is their Visual kei part of their image. Their dressing is inspired by 17th century type of dressing, I think. The band’s concept is “The absolute formula of beauty and extremity of aestheticism”, and the extravagant 17th century French clothes show all of that, and it does work a lot. You readers should know by now that I very much adore the vampire Lestat de Lioncourt off the Vampire Chronicles series by Anne Rice, and sometimes I can’t help but to think Kamijo is so very like a Japanese Lestat. I’ve read some fans having had experiences meeting Kamijo and they say that his mannerisms resemble him, but I forgot where I’ve read it. And if you’ve seen his eyes and his flashy coloured hair and the elegant way he talks in interviews make me feel like I am seeing the Lestat of my dreams sometimes. The man is awesome.
I sometimes think being in RP is irrelevant to what I want in life. My course is Technology and Arts Management but I am unsure that if I graduate with this - would I be able to utilise this diploma, and will it be useless to what I want? I do not want to be an arts manager; it’s not my calling at all. I do have some interest in things like fine arts but I have never considered being an arts manager, doing all those ‘arty farty’ stuff like attending art festivals, let alone manage those events. A facilitator has advised me to go to private schools and consider taking private diplomas which are related to my interests - and that these diplomas can be completed within a year. Another friend has advised me to go to TP instead to take their Mass Communications course. What am I supposed to do now? I do not want to waste my parent’s money and do something which inadvertently costs too much money. I really like RP right now, but I can’t imagine doing what I am indifferent against. I wonder what I should do.
In all of my 16+ years of life, I have never lifted a finger to go and work anywhere at all. It’s not like I’m spoilt and given whatever I want, its just that I am happy enough with my financial situation and I have never found anything appealing in working part-time to gain money to spend for myself since I don’t really need the spare money - I am content with whatever I have. But recently, after talking to my parents about the diploma thing they said something about private schools being expensive and I understand since my family isn’t so very well-off anyway. They suggested working part-time, and I eventually thought it was a good idea. I told them I could teach primary school kids English, Maths, Science and Malay and since my mother is a tuition teacher herself, its easy to find kids to teach. I just started yesterday, and the boy which I taught was quite cute actually, enthusiastic to learn. I might not be an example teacher, though, I betted with him that if he could get a Band 2 for his English end of year examination (equivalent to a B4 or simply a B grade), I would hand him $10 without question. Better still if he got a Band 1 (A), I would give him $20 even if I didn’t have any money with me. I don’t know if this is good motivation or not, let’s just wait and see the results. XD
It’s a big possibility that I might work at a ‘nasi ayam penyet’: (image here) restaurant near Parkway Parade mall in Marine Parade too, but that would most probably be after 17th August since I have a big-scale arts event to participate in. How is it possible to juggle 3 jobs at once - my school, tuition teaching and restaurant waitress? Ah, that would mean I would have to abandon my fiction prospects and reading of Harry Potter’s last book and also Anne Rice’s Memnoch the Devil, both of which I’ve bought last month (but still haven’t found the time to even touch them yet)!
Right now, I have some photoshopping to do and reading some Epicurean works to do. My life’s not so boring anymore, and I am glad for it.
